Okay, this is gonna be something random again. Just like the usual, right? I felt like writing this one because of the song I’m listening to right now. It’s Holding Back The Tears by TVXQ
It’s been how many days since I’ve been a Cassie? Aaah, thinking about it makes me wonder so many things, about how a Cassiopeia since 2003 have felt on certain times.
How does it feel when they are right in front of you?
How does it feel like when they are singing for you?
How does it feel like when they are dancing for you?
How does it feel like when you witness them cry because you made them reach the top spot?
How does it feel like when they are thanking you?
How does it feel like when they say I love you Cassiopeia in front of you?
How does it feel when you can say that you’ve been part of the red ocean?
How does it feel like when you heard the news of their comeback?
How does it feel like buying a new released album of them?
How does it feel like during the lawsuit?
And most of all, how do Cassies who’ve been supporting them for years handle the split?
To me, who’s been a Cassie for months only, it feels like.. I can’t even explain.
I feel really bitter and still could not accept the fact that they are not together now.
It makes me teary and it hurts so much that I wonder…
How much more these Cassies since their debut felt?
I’m like a girl who doesn’t want to eat spaghetti because I’m still craving for fried chicken which is already finished.
I’m like a student who wants to keep on answering the exam but the time is up.
I’m like a child who still wants to sleep but nap time is over.
I’m like a teenager who’s still holding onto a relationship that’s already ended.
I am a person, a Cassie, who couldn’t move on and accept things, a Cassie who’s still stuck in the past that she can’t see the beauty of the present.
I don’t know the real case.
I don’t know the real story.
I don’t know the reasons.
I don’t know each side’s statements.
I don’t how each really feels about it…
but I do know one thing and I’m sure of it.
All five of them are hurt.
We, Cassies, are hurt, too.
Everybody doesn’t want this and I know, though everyone may look like they’ve moved on…
There’s still that little strand of longing and hope in each of their hearts.
We all miss them together and I’m sure the members misses each other, too.. Jaejoong even tweeted it.
I’m sure they miss us, Cassies, too.
The best fandom for the best group.
You guys have really come a long way, achieved history, improved tons and loved by millions.
I know, I surely does, that your love for each other can never be broken by a mere contract problem and company incident.
As a Cassie who’s been so into you, I can say, I’m one of the Cassies who have seen the incredible bond you have as brothers.
I don’t side any group.
I SUPPORT ALL FIVE OF YOU BECAUSE I CALL MYSELF A CASSIOPEIA.
A CASSIOPEIA THAT HAS FIVE BRIGHT, SHINING STARS.
I hope the best for all you.
I’m always keeping the faith.
Hope ’til the end.
I love you guys! ❤