Memories: I’ll Stand By U

I fell in love with a sweet memory and I don’t want to go back in the present just yet.

I saw someone in Youtube said this to a troll: “We’ve already lost the group. Let us enjoy what we have left. Don’t make us anymore upset.”

It was like a big slap of reality in the face. It’s embarrassing to say but I teared up after reading that comment. It made me stop a little and say, “Reality sucks.” I am living in the past, having only the five in you in my thoughts, watching the shows the five of you went in, listening to the music the five of you made, and keeping the faith with all the people who knows only the five of you. It made me forget about the reality I am living in. It made me a person living in nothing but mere beautiful memories.

Memories that made me cry… Memories that are so painful… Memories that are so heartbreaking… yet they are the memories I just couldn’t let go… because…

Those memories have inspired me in life; I learned to dream and soar high from it.

Those memories made me see the beauty of friendship; I learned how to value relationships more than my own ego.

Those memories gave me a family; It made me become a more open and socially active person.

Those memories made me smile; It made a more cheerful person than I was before.

Those memories made me laugh; They made me strong even in my weakest point.

Those memories taught me a lot of things; too much that I don’t know how to enumerate them.

Those memories gave me light; It made me see the beauty of life.

Those memories mean so much to me… that it became a permanent part of me already.

Yes, it is in these bittersweet memories where I would always come back. I don’t want to go back to reality just yet. The beautiful memory of the five of you is always holding me back. Even though it can bring tears and heartaches, I would never give it up for something else. And when the time I finally decide to go back to reality, I am hoping that those five persons will stand on stage as one, with smiles on their faces as they say “Thank you for waiting on us, Cassiopeia.” 

I may have forgotten the reality; that there are only two and three. Some may say I’m delusional; that they will not be coming back.

But I can’t let go… because I know that it’s hard to wait around for something you know might never happen; but it’s even harder to give up when you know it’s everything you want.

Now Playing: Love Is Never Gone :”(