Archive | December 2011

[December 26] A Melody and Harmony In Love

~Always Keep The Faith~

I think it’s best when all 5 members of TVXQ work together.
– Xiah Junsu, Mnet What’s Up Star 2005

Dong Bang Shin Ki: A thing which I treasure the most.
-Micky Yoohun, Nikkan Daily SPorts 2009

What does Tohoshinki mean to you: It’s where I belong.
– Youngwoon Jaejoong, VIVI Magazine November 2009

I want to continue (TVXQ) with everybody forever.
– Choikang Changmin, History in Japan Vol.2 2007

 Tohoshinki: My friends and family. The most important treasures.
-U-know Yunho, Nikkan Sports Daily 2009

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December 26

An unforgettable day for all Cassies, for all BigEasts and for all international fans…

That very same day 8 years ago,

Five young men stood on the stage for the very first time, singing a Christmas song for us.

That very same day where the name Dong Bang Shin Ki is born.

That very same day where they debuted and started their career in the music industry.

I may not have known you since that day…

I may not have witnessed every stages you had…

I may not be there to buy your albums…

I may not be there under the red ocean…

I may not be there to cheer for you on your concerts…

I may not be there to support you on your hard times…

But I can commit my forever, just keeping my faith on you…

Meeting and knowing was like, one of the best blessings I received from God

Just like how spring breaks after the cold and freezing winter…

Just like how flowers bloom after being covered by piles of snow…

Just like how rainbows appear after the long rain…

Just like how a smile breaks after a painful memory…

Just like how the sun rises in the morning after the long darkness of the night…

Just like how I open my eyes and hear the birds chirping every morning…

You made my life more meaningful, more lovelier and more brighter…

You made me inspired…

You taught me how to be strong…

You taught me how to let go and accept things…

You taught me how to move forward…

You taught me how to love unconditionally and wait wholeheartedly…

I know we are always going to be connected in our hearts, Cassiopeia and TVXQ

Just like what you said in Asu Wa Kuru Kara We’ve shared smiles and tears alike. You and I have made this journey..

Just like what you said in I Believe There was only one thing in my mind, from when I woke up in the morning till when I went to bed at night. I can’t let you go. You are the only one in my life

Just like what you said in Love In The Ice Just like the star that doesn’t leave the dark night sky..
We’ll carry this dream forever together with love and trust.

We are always contented with our lives with you in it and we are ready to give our all for you…

Just like what you said in My Destiny Meeting you in my dreams is enough, it’s enough for me. Let it take away the pain… 

Just like what you said in Hug I want to you give you everything in this world. Even if it would only be in my dreams..

The pain may be unbearable but we will never give up our faith on you…

Just like what you said in Sky I push aside my pain and hurt and face tomorrow only holding onto freedom…

Just like what you said in You Always The days just drag on, even though the longing for you and this pain is always so new. You’re walking on your path, I see. If you want, I can wait. I’m still the way I am..

And just like what you said in Don’t Cry My Lover I close my eyes for a moment, I still love you so. I should give up, but I can’t let you go. You taught me how to love. Now, how can I forget you?

We don’t have the guts to leave and forget something so precious like you.. Wanna know why?

Just like what you said in Tonight, You have stolen our hearts and stolen our soul…

Just like what you said in Crazy Love No matter what anybody says, you’re my crazy love. Though they say I’m crazy, just can’t get enough…

Just like what you said in Step By Step For some reason when I look at you, every day is enjoyable…

Just like what you said in Beautiful Life There’s no need for a specific place I like, Because my favorite place is you…

Just like what you said in Mirotic, We want you. We have fallen for you. We’re crazy over you. We can’t escape you. You got us… under your skin

And most impotantly…

Just like what you said in You’re My Melody It’s your love, your love. You told me the meaning of love. You’re my rhythm. A gift in my life, giving me beautiful dreams, always by my side. I’ll sing it again, you’re my song..

And because of that we can promise you this…

Just like what you said in Afterglow (A Picture of you) I’ll wait for you. I’ll never let go of your hands. Even if it’s only tears, I’ll wipe them away for you..

Just like what you said in I’ll Be There For you who taught me cute and precious love, I’ll be there for you..

Just like what you said in Always There Even if my mind was erased, I wouldn’t forget your face . Your face is clear when I am full of sad memories and tears ..

Just like what you said in Forever Love I’ve been passing time like this, but from now on, you’re the only one I’ll never part from..

Just like what you said in Wasurenaide  I’ll become the wind and wrap gently around you. Right now, I want to fly to a world with you in it. Even though I want to see you so much… I miss you so much… I’m waiting for you, don’t forget me..

Just like what you said in Doushite But, even though I say that I need you close to me. I just pray that you will be happy forever. No matter how lonely that makes me (or how sad)…

And lastly, just like what you said in Stand By U I will be here forever. Even now, I am right here, believing in a day that we will meet again.

Now let’s close our eyes and remember…

The 15-year old cute Changmin… You really looked like a maknae up there Minnie…

The 17-year old cheeky Yoochun who looks like an angel…

The 17 -year old Junsu who almost forgot the dance steps…

The 17-year old Yunho with his cute, white teeth…

And of course, the 17-year old Jaejoong and his dark, innocent eyes…

Now let’s open our eyes and see…

how much they’ve improved

how much they are loved

how many awards they won

how they are recognized throughout Asia

how they came this far

how they made us proud

And how they became the BEST ❤

All five members of TVXQ aren’t together right now but don’t worry …

Don’t worry Changmin…

I may know a more evil maknae than you but they are not the Choikang Changmin I adore.

You are still the most evil one in my eyes. 😀

Don’t worry Junsu…

There may be others who have a more remarkable laugh than you but they are not the Xiah Junsu I admire. 

You are still the record holder in my heart. 😀

Don’t worry Yoochun…

I may find other idols who have a more sexier English pronunciation than you but they are not the Micky Yoochun I idolize.

You will always have the sexiest one in my ears. 😀

Don’t worry Yunho…

There may be others who have greater rapping skills than you but they are not the U-Know Yunho I look up to.

You’re still the best one in my world. 😀

Don’t worry Jaejoong…

There may be more handsome guys than you but don’t worry.. He isn’t the Hero Jaejoong I love.

You will always be my definition of perfection. 😀

Don’t worry TVXQ…

There may be other groups out there who has greater dancing skills, longer vocal ranges and better looks…

but I DON’T CARE! 😀

I know I have found only the BEST and that is you.. TVXQ 

I may be a SONE, an aff(x)tionate and a Shawol…

But it is being a Cassiopeia I’m most proud of being…

And it is one of the fandoms I would never, ever leave… Just like how TVXQ is one of the groups I would never, ever stop loving…

Just like how water flows in endless circles…

Just like how the Earth revolves around the sun…

Just like how my blood circulates throughout my body…

My love for you won’t stop.

8 years..

9 years..

10 years..

20 years..

50 years..

100 years..

A lifetime…

I know the Cassies and TVXQ will always be together and will never leave each others’ side..

because just like what Jaejoong and Yoochun said…

“We’re like a melody and harmony in love”

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[A/N: This is edited by one of my dear friends :D]

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Now enjoy the day TVXQ and Cassies!

Let’s party hard!

Happy 8th anniversary boys! ^^

-CASSIEforever-

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[December 25] To the Birthday Celebrant

Let us all remember what makes today the most special day on the calendar…

My message to the birthday celebrant

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! 😀

Today is the day You were born.

Today is the day the Heaven sent someone so precious like You.

I’m so grateful for having You in my heart, in my soul and in my life.

I’m really thankful for everything, for all the sacrifices, for enduring all the hardships and pain you’ve gone through, for being the most selfless person Earth ever had, for dying on the cross for me and for fulfilling God’s greatest promise to mankind, Salvation. ❤

Some says the best thing that happened was when You died on the cross, others say when You raise from the dead, many says the moment you ascended to Heaven but to me… the best part was when You were born, the greatest gift of all…

Today, I wanted to say sorry to You and to our Dear Lord God.

Sorry for valuing things more than the persons I have in my life. I have forgotten that I am Your apple of the eye and You have never valued anything else more than me.

Sorry for not being contented with what I have. I have forgotten that You always gives me only what’s best for me.

Sorry for being childish and immature at times and being envious of others. I have forgotten that I am already perfect in Your eyes.

Sorry for all the lies I’ve said. I have forgotten that lying to other persons is like lying to myself, too.

Sorry for holding grudges and not easily forgiving someone. I have forgotten that even before I make my mistake, You have forgiven me already.

Sorry, because most of the times, I talk back to my parents. I have forgotten that talking back to them is like talking back to You, too.

Sorry for all the times that I talk badly behind other people’s back. I have forgotten that they are my brothers and sisters.

Sorry for the times that I laugh or make fun of someone else’s flaws and weaknesses. I have forgotten that I, as a human, have my own weak points too.

Sorry for all the times that I blame You because of the hardships I am going through. I have forgotten that everything I am going through right now has it’s own purposes that will serve as building block for tomorrow’s blessing.

And I’m really sorry… because most of the time, I forgot that I am in Your presence. I have forgotten the fact that You never forget about me, not even a single second. ❤

Thank you for all the blessing I have received, currently receiving and will receive in the future.

Thank you for the loving family you have given me and to all my dearest friends whom I have shared countless memories with.

Thank you for introducing to me to TVXQ. I’m really thankful for that.

Thank you for being always there, like a wall to lean on and a shoulder to cry on.

Thank you for guiding me every single step of the way.

Thank you for accompanying me through the worst times, constantly reminding me that I am not alone and that I’m always loved.

Thank you so much for the gift of life, for the salvation and for the eternal and unconditional love You have for me.

I owe You more than I can repay in this lifetime.

You are the only one who knows everything about me. Perhaps, even more than I know myself.

You knew every single thought I have, every secrets I am keeping, every lies I’ve made, the reason for my every smile and the reason for each of my tears. You knew me best, to the number of strands of my hair, to my habits, my handwriting, my principles in life, my doubts, my confusions and all the little things that could make me happy. 🙂

You are the best there ever is.

I know it’s an understatement to say so because no words can perfectly describe You, even the word perfect isn’t enough.

It is indeed, a privilege and honor to have You in my life.

I may not be the best daughter out of all but I know, in Your eyes, that I am the best in my own way.

I’ll do my duty as Your responsible steward and make You the sun where my life revolves around.

I will give it my best shot to reform my ways and make You, Jesus and our Father the center of my life. The reason of my everything, the reason why I smile, the reason why I laugh,  the reason why I study, the reason why I work, the reason why I care, the reason why I love, the reason why I’m breathing.

Yes, the reason why I’m living.

You are the best gift I have received and there’s nothing more I could hope for.

Today, I wish all the bests for You.

I wish that all people may remember to whom this day was really for, that they will never forget the spirit of Christmas, that they will continue to love and share their blessings even on normal days and that they will never forget the best gift mankind has received.

You are truly the best King.

I may be distant most of the times but…

I LOVE YOU! ❤

Sending You lots of love on Your birthday..

Happy Birthday to the most awesome and most powerful one…

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JESUS! 😀

Thoughts…

It’s December 22, 2011

I seriously miss TVXQ as five… 😥

It is really heartbreaking, every time the pain feels like it’s new to me…

That… I sometimes wish… I could go back in time

I wish I didn’t know them…

I wish I didn’t listen to their music…

I wish I didn’t bother searching their name on the net…

I wish I didn’t pay any attention when I saw the name TVXQ…

I wish the time to go back so that I don’t long for them…

so that I don’t miss them…

so that I don’t cry for them…

so that I wasn’t heartbroken like this because of them…

And so that I don’t love them…

The pain is unbearable that sometimes, thoughts like these are popping in my mind…

It feels like I wanted to regret loving TVXQ so much.

It feels like I wanted to regret knowing them.

That sometimes, I wanted to divert my attention to other groups… so I could somehow blind myself from the pain.

But the more I watch other groups’ performances…

The more I realize that no one can be compared to TVXQ

That they are just the BEST and NO ONE ELSE.

And the worst thing that I thought…

Is that I wanted to just move on and forget that all of these happened… Forget that TVXQ existed in my life…

Forget that I love TVXQ… 

But then.. loving them wasn’t a choice, neither an option nor a decision…

It was completely involuntary… I have fallen for them…

And I don’t know the reason why…

I couldn’t say because of the looks and their voices…

Because I know I’ll still love them even when TVXQ are a hundred year old guys who have grumpy faces and could no longer sing anymore…

And that’s why… I don’t know any reason why I’m gonna turn my back on them.

Forget that I love TVXQ?

I’ve thought of doing so but never found the guts to do it…

Every part of me refrains the idea.

They taught me how to love.

Just like a song,

I am just the lyrics, the body, the thought…

But with them…

I’m complete.

They are the rhythm, the harmony, the beat, the timbre and the melody that accompanies me.

They made life more wonderful, more colorful, sweeter and lovelier.

So how could I even forget you?

I don’t know the reasons..

Why am I saying this?

It’s because I just want you, TVXQ, to know…

that I may have these kind of thoughts… that I may wish not knowing you… that I may have thought about leaving you…

But please do remember the fact that they are just illusions…

I could never, ever do that.

It’ll make me incomplete.

Like a shoe without shoelaces…

Like a pool without water…

Like a pen without a paper…

Like a flower without petals…

Like a butterfly without its wings…

And a song without a melody.

I LOVE YOU, TVXQ!

I will always be a Cassie. 🙂

Remember what I said?

that if I were to have my second lifetime.. I’ll choose having this pain and longing than not having known you..

I’m yours, TVXQ

If I never met you, I wouldn’t like you. If I didn’t like you, I wouldn’t love you. If I didn’t love you, I wouldn’t miss you. 

But I did, I do and I will…

I’m missing you every single moment

Everytime your song plays

Everytime your melody is heard

Everytime your voice is recognized

Closing my eyes

I can’t help but savor the moment

And relive the happy memories

With my mind wandering

My heart aching

My soul searching

A tear drops

A tear that symbolizes how much I miss you

A tear that symbolizes I’m still with you

A tear that symbolizes how heavy my heart is

A tear that symbolizes how much the pain is

A tear that symbolizes it is too much to bear

A tear that says I will never forget you

A tear that speaks out the heart and soul

Who is longing for you

Who is searching for you

Who is missing you

Who is shouting for you

Who is constantly telling you to come back

Please tell me to be strong…

Please tell me not to cry…

Please tell me to only smile…

Please tell me that it will be alright…

Please tell me that you will always be by my side…

Please tell me that all this longing and pain will be over soon…

Please tell me that I, as a Cassiopeia,  am never forgotten…

And please tell me to continue keeping the faith…

I have grown tired and weary

Sometimes, I felt like I’m on the verge of giving up and letting go…

But my heart always says you’ve been going through much more..

So here I am… smiling despite the tears…

Telling you to be strong…

Telling you to stop crying…

Telling you to smile…

Telling you it will be alright…

Telling you that I will never leave your side…

Telling you that all this longing and pain will be over soon…

Telling you that as Dong Bang Shin Ki, you are never forgotten…

And telling you that I will always keep my faith on you…

You must’ve grown tired and weary, too.

You must’ve felt like being on the verge of giving up and letting go, too…

But here you are..

Continuing on living the dream and making us smile…

The wound can be healed and the pain can fade leaving only memories and how painful it was.

We can remember the hard times but we can always look up at the beautiful ones after…

I can cry because of what happened but I know I can always laugh and smile remembering how much I love you…

No matter how much pain…

No matter how long this will be…

No matter how heavy the pain is…

I am ready to accept it…

Because it is from the one I love the most…

Because it is from the one who taught me so many things…

Because it is from the one my heart belongs to…

Because it is from TVXQ…

I could never make space for anybody else in my heart.

I never regret anything

I was, am and will always be a Cassiopeia and I will always be proud of being one.

I will never be anyone else

I will never belong to anyone else

Just yours..

It is never goodbye, just a long I’ll see you later...

iHEARTtvxq ❤

My Yoongie Forever

It’s been a while since I’ve thought of writing a post dedicated to the persons whom I loved before I knew TVXQ.

It’s like I’m forgetting them day after the other.

Fading, as it seems..

But now.. I’ve decided to write something about YoonA, my favorite flower.

Another up with another random things..

May 30, 1990

A goddess was born.

A pretty, young girl with overflowing innocent and lovely charm.

Who transformed into such a fine looking lady with a refreshing and youthful charm.

“Don’t wait for a miracle, there’s a rough road in front of us” – YoonA; Into The New World

She effortlessly captured everyone’s attention with her sharp and distinct facial features displaying her pretty charm.

“My face got red and my shocked eyes got big” – YoonA; Girls’ Generation

She’s always been the luggage-carrier of other members and the girl who can break 6 chopsticks in one try showing everybody her strong and tough charm.

“I will convey my stuffy and sorrowful heart one day. The gifts that pile up everyday (I want to give it to you)” – YoonA; Baby Baby

She’s been assigned as the group’s center or image and with that she gained anti-fans but she still showed her professional charm.

“What should I do? About my trembling heart. My heart kept thumping. So I couldn’t fall asleep at night” – YoonA; Gee

Months after, she stepped another level to greatness exhibiting her feminine and chic charm.

“I’m a good luck goddess that wants to make your wish come true” – YoonA; Genie


She’s been known to laugh with her mouth wide open indicating her exciting and carefree charm.

“It’s the truth so don’t make fun either.” – YoonA; Oh

Contrary to that, she became more matured as days passed showcasing her hot and sexy charm.

“You’re no fun, you have no manners. You’re a devil, devil you are.” – YoonA; Run Devil Run

She has only one aegyo which bothers all the other members with overflowing cute and irresistible charm.

“I can even see our future prospect will be bright. I’ll grant all your wishes.” – YoonA; Genie Jap Version

She’s been known as the most popular member in Japan thus indicating her alluring and charismatic charm.

“A girl’s heart. People don’t understand. The timeline is cooling off our feelings.” -YoonA; Gee Jap Version

She came back to Korea, surprising her fans with her elegant and gorgeous charm.

“I really don’t like becoming used to it. All, all, all of it is disappointing.” -YoonA; Hoot

She belongs to the crazy side of the group showing everyone her dorky and funny charm.

“I’m going at a speed that can’t be caught, oops!” – YoonA; Mr. Taxi

She’s known to act beautifully and model stunningly aside from singing and dancing displaying her talented charm.

“Is the dark world making you lose strength? Are you alright?” – YoonA; The Boys Korean version

You’re my favorite girl because you showed me your goddess charm.

“Imma be the hottest in this spot. There ain’t no stopping me~ stopping me.” – YoonA; The Boys English Version

Continue to be just the way you are.

When times get tough…

Always remember that you have thousands of YoonAddicts to back you up!

iHEARTyoona ❤

I can’t believe…

It’s 1:30 AM and I can’t sleep..

Exploring on youtube with TVXQ videos, I came across a tribute video for them and it literally made me cry..

And I realized.. I can’t believe I’m crying for them ❤

This is really heartbreaking.

Thinking about it.. it’s really painful. For me, it’s still an open wound.

And I can’t believe myself for being like this.

I can’t believe that TVXQ is the first thing that pops up to my mind everytime.

I can’t believe I can’t last a day without listening to your songs.

I can’t believe I don’t last a day without saying your name.

I can’t believe how you managed to dominate my heart, setting SNSD, F(x) and SHINee aside in my heart.

I can’t believe that your name is the first thing I look for in my youtube subscriptions.

I can’t believe I watch Mirotic’s music video more than ten times a day.

I can’t believe that the name TVXQ can make my heart skip a beat.

I can’t believe I’ll be this inspired because of you.

I can’t believe I made a twitter account just because of you.

I can’t believe I entitled my blog Cassieforever.

I can’t believe that when I first created this blog, the first post I thought was to say how much I miss you.

I can’t believe I smile like crazy unknowingly just remembering your funny jokes.

I can’t believe I’m typing this.

I can’t believe I named a star after you, and it’s the first star I would look for every evening.

I’m really overwhelmed..

I can’t believe I’ll get to know the legends of Kpop.

I can’t believe I’ll love each of you this much.

I can’t believe I’m now a Cassiopeia.

I can’t believe you are not together anymore.

I can’t believe I’ll miss you this much.

I can’t believe I’m crying like this…

And I can’t believe the thought of you will bring this much tears.

But you know what I believe?

It’s that I’m not alone. 

There are other Cassies out there, having the same feeling as mine…

Only TVXQ can make me feel this way, only THEM..

I can’t believe…

that if I were to have my second lifetime.. I’ll choose having this pain and longing than not having known you..

I’ll stand by you forever..

I’m thinking about you and it won’t change..

Just keeping the faith..

Hope ’til the end

iHEARTtvxq<3